In the previous post on this topic, I began to peer into the central theme of Christianity. I approached this with a more intellectual style. Today, I want to share a more visceral engagement with the central theme, based on a powerful dream I had last night.
I found myself at a store kind of like Costco. I didn’t work there, but I was given a task to help move some coolers to a different part of the store. While going about this job, I asked for help from one of the employees. It turned out that he was the younger brother of a friend of mine. He started giving me some tips on how to stack the coolers and where to place them. We started talking about his plans for the future and he said he wanted to get involved with a spiritual form of counseling called Sozo.
As he began to describe what this type of counseling looked like, I started to have a vision. I saw a couple people going through the process he was describing, encountering the love of Jesus and being set free of everything that held them back. My friend asked me if that was what I was seeing in this vision, because he could tell I was seeing something. I confirmed that it was.
I began to sob as I sensed the goodness of Jesus pulling this couple out of bondage and setting them free. I wept. I wept as I felt Jesus pulling the lies, anxiety, and fear out of me as well. It was like he was a massive reservoir, and all my pain, sorrow, and delusion was being emptied into him, and he was able to contain all of it and more.
I cried for two reasons. First, because I began to recognize and name all the unbelief, worry, and deception that I carried wrapped up in my heart. Second, because Jesus was so unfathomably good and his love so unutterably supreme, that it effortlessly pulled out all the darkness.
What if this is what seeing Jesus is like? What if he is the undoing of everything we were never meant to be? The sunflower turns to face the sun, just as we, by nature, turn to face Jesus when he rises in our awareness. What if judgement day is like this? A day when, seeing and understanding for the first time, we all behold such unspeakable goodness that we gladly unfold all that we are into the brilliance of his grace. It is like receiving impossibly good news; a loved one raised back to life; stage 4 cancer inexplicably dissolved; an inheritance fortune received from an unknown relative. It is a twist of fate, a eucatastrophe, a comedy, a shock of beauty after a life of survival.
His love is incomparably final over all things. He is the author of faith. He writes it into our very nature, and it will respond when its creator arrives to our consciousness. We are beings with unknowably complex contortions of thought, motive, and feeling. Our multi-layered personas are veiled from our own view, and it is only the fire of a thousand suns that can cause us to turn and unfurl the petals of our being.
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