Oh yes, there have been changes in my life. I’ve already discussed the death of my father, so no need to rehash that. I was recently tested psychologically, and it turns out that I’m on the autism spectrum. I’ve suspected it for a while, given my history with anxiety, especially in social situations (I wouldn’t be surprised if you suspected it, too). On the one hand, it’s disheartening to know I have a disorder that will require maintenance for the rest of my life. On the other hand, it’s a relief to have an explanation for why I am the way I am.
For someone like me, change is not merely scary. It can be debilitating. It’s a lot harder for me to accept that life is full of twists and turns that I have to lean into. And it’s next to impossible for me let go of bad habits and lifestyle choices that hold me back. Even though they’re negative, I hold onto them because they’re part of a routine that I’m used to. I have some serious work to do if I’m going to survive my forties, fifties, and so on. But I don’t know if I can do it.
Hey Chris, thanks for sharing your thoughts on the matter. For what my two cents are worth, I think you can do it. You're certainly not alone in having negative habits that are hard to let go of. I have had my fair share of them as well. In fact, having Bobbie has been one of the more challenging changes in my life, one that forces change whether I like it or not, but also shows me ways that I can choose to change (or not).
For the record, I didn't guess or suspect that you had any autistic traits! It may feel glib for me to say so, but in some ways that may be an advantage. You see things differently, and therefore have something unique to offer others. I'm sure you have a journey ahead of you learning how to manage/maintain your routines and direction from here forward. I think you'll do just fine.
Oh yes, there have been changes in my life. I’ve already discussed the death of my father, so no need to rehash that. I was recently tested psychologically, and it turns out that I’m on the autism spectrum. I’ve suspected it for a while, given my history with anxiety, especially in social situations (I wouldn’t be surprised if you suspected it, too). On the one hand, it’s disheartening to know I have a disorder that will require maintenance for the rest of my life. On the other hand, it’s a relief to have an explanation for why I am the way I am.
For someone like me, change is not merely scary. It can be debilitating. It’s a lot harder for me to accept that life is full of twists and turns that I have to lean into. And it’s next to impossible for me let go of bad habits and lifestyle choices that hold me back. Even though they’re negative, I hold onto them because they’re part of a routine that I’m used to. I have some serious work to do if I’m going to survive my forties, fifties, and so on. But I don’t know if I can do it.
Hey Chris, thanks for sharing your thoughts on the matter. For what my two cents are worth, I think you can do it. You're certainly not alone in having negative habits that are hard to let go of. I have had my fair share of them as well. In fact, having Bobbie has been one of the more challenging changes in my life, one that forces change whether I like it or not, but also shows me ways that I can choose to change (or not).
For the record, I didn't guess or suspect that you had any autistic traits! It may feel glib for me to say so, but in some ways that may be an advantage. You see things differently, and therefore have something unique to offer others. I'm sure you have a journey ahead of you learning how to manage/maintain your routines and direction from here forward. I think you'll do just fine.